Kreed has a capacity for love I've never seen or experienced before. He knows who loves him unconditionally and without limits and he knows who does not and acts accordingly. He experiences the world in a very sensory way and will often stand outside and just feel the wind. When was the last time you just stood outside to feel the wind whip around your body and the sun beam down on your face? Sometimes I feel like if more of us took those moments we would be a lot better off. Kreed adores hiking and I feel it is because he loves to experience nature, calmness and beauty. (I read this to him and asked him and he said "yes" this is correct).
Of course there are times where chaos over takes Kreed or he can't understand why something can't happen NOW and those are the not fun times. Or when Kreed is unable to do so many self helps skills or when he floods a bathroom etc etc. Those moments are not the fun moments, but they are still moments to learn (even if he forgets the next day). The fact is, even if he gets in trouble for whatever it is he can't do...he holds no grudge toward me for saying no or yelling if he does something he's not supposed. It's right back to instant kisses and hugs and laughing and smiles. Because he lives in the now. He is an incredibly forgiving boy, lucky for me! He has taught me to do the same when you love someone. There can be anger and sadness and things done or said, but at the end of the day, it's always about love.
There is another page we follow called Conversations with Casey (click HERE). She often speaks about Choosing Joy. And she is exactly right. That is what Kreed does. That's what Casey does. They choose joy. They choose joy over thinking of the thousand things that are hard for them and instead focus on what they are good at. They seek out joy every single day of their life. And when the chaos over takes, they do what they can to right the world again.
I never started Kreed's World with the intention of anything other than filming his progress with a device because it had never been done to this level before. Yet, for me and for Kreed, it has become so much more. A diary of our life and a testament to living in the now and choosing joy. Living in the now has helped us be able to forgive those hard moments and move on without regret, without wishing things would be different and honestly, to be able to not sink into deep depressions because of the state of our life. We just keep going with each new day bringing us new opportunities.
I challenge all of us to live in the now. To rock. To jump. To feel the wind. To find our center. And see the difference it can make in all of our lives.
Kreed, I hope one day you can read all of this and realize the profound impact you have made on this world. I know you and I can't wait until we get to those moments. Until then, I love you and thank you for teaching me far more than I will ever teach you.